Bernadette Mayer, “Experiments” (via fscottfitzgerald)
i might also mention that i’ve been drinking a minimum of 3 espresso shots a day for the past month. i quit 2 days ago, and the withdrawal is horrendous. major irritability, headaches, dizziness, drowsiness (even with good sleep), etc.
i’ve also quit smoking pot. not that i smoked that much anyhow, but i’m feeling a call to purify my consciousness by cutting out unnecessary drugs that are hard on my body, mind and spirit.
so now i’m here drinking warm spiced almond milk w/ honey, getting my cozy on before bed.
why does facebook ask you the gender of the people you’re “interested in”? i’m interested in all kinds of people. people are interesting.
No epiphanies, no closure, just patterns, trends, an inkling of a design. No reasons. The embracing of complexity, ambivalence, contradiction. No false crescendos. Only one’s life there, there — stretched out before one — open again. Given back. Taken back. Those endless afternoons.
Blue and green and gold brocade. Feathers, bells, someday.
—Carole Maso Break Every Rule Essays on Language, Longing & Moments of Desire
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